Toujours 外人 always. a foreigner: No

T'es bien venu.

Oui. Félicitations. What am I doing in France? I don't know. Moreover, I always say "France," but in particular I'm in Paris. That's strange, isn't it?

I gave up what easily could've been a second semester in Japan, and more likely a second semester of seeing all of Japan, to stick to my original plan, created before I started college, to go to both Japan and France. That wasn't my dream; I knew it could and was pretty sure I would happen, so I didn't have to dream about it. But now I'm here, missing the infinite mountain landscapes and many freedoms I had within biking distance on my shoddy little bicycle in the land of the rising sun. Here the sun never rises; the window of my room faces in to a center closed off by three buildings where light has a hard time entering. As I start here with Japan now a dream, this (trivially, as we say in the math language) makes France, or Paris, rather, my reality. What will I do here?

I'll find that out. Then you'll find out what I have been doing here.

土曜日, 3月 14, 2009

I almost got what I so badly wanted when I was happy. This was a week after I got here. Now I still want it and I'm not happy. Just one little thing can get me so depressed. I don't want to have a romance to rescue me from unhappiness. Because I know I'll never get such a thing. I just know it. I can't believe otherwise.

And it hurts. It hurts so bad.

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